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AO3 stats meme

It turns out I haven't done this since May 2015. It's more tricky to do now because I've ticked the box to hide everyone's stats. Partly because they took away the ability to hide my stats from everyone so this one I can pretend like everyone sees the same as me. And also partly because one Yuletide I wrote the fic with the lowest hits/kudos/comments by an order of magnitude. I'm much happier not knowing that. Continue reading


I've been doing lots of writing this month.

I procrastinated on my [info]unconventionalcourtship fic by writing six Doctor Who drabbles for Merry Month of Drabbles. Which I really enjoyed writing.

I finished off a fic I started in 2018 that's a sequel to one [info]selenay wrote for me in an exchange. At one point it was 4905 words and I was determined to get up to 5000 even though I kept taking words out when editing. And also realised I had forgotten that since I've set it during SJA's run that it's before smartphones...
The Ballet Date (5018 words) by paranoidangel
Fandom: Doctor Who (2005), Sarah Jane Adventures
Rating: General Audiences
Relationships: Kate Lethbridge-Stewart/Sarah Jane Smith
Characters: Kate Lethbridge-Stewart, Sarah Jane Smith
Additional Tags: Second Date, Ballet, Motherhood, Friends to Lovers
Summary: Kate and Sarah Jane's second date doesn't go quite as planned.

I was then inspired by the most recent episode of Strange New Worlds to write a post-ep. Which lots of other people were too, but mine was gen and therefore the only one I was interested in reading. I thought before the series started that it would be one I'd get into, but then once it started I didn't have any interest in writing anything and thought it would stay that way. Turns out I am all about the Pike angst...
Time and Memory (515 words) by paranoidangel
Fandom: Star Trek: Strange New Worlds (TV)
Rating: General Audiences
Characters: Christopher Pike, Number One (Star Trek), Geoffrey M'Benga
Additional Tags: Post-Episode: s01e04
Summary: Pike and Number One discuss the aftermath of the events in Memento Mori

I recently listened to the latest UNIT audio and realised there is potential for Sarah & Harry fic, which they can't do in the audios. But since I reject the idea that Sarah dies at any point, I can totally write.
Vanishing Act (866 words) by paranoidangel
Fandom: Sarah Jane Adventures, Doctor Who (1963), UNIT: the New Series (Big Finish Audio)
Rating: General Audiences
Characters: Sarah Jane Smith, Harry Sullivan (Doctor Who)
Summary: An old friend turns up at Sarah Jane's.

After writing 5000+ word fics, writing under 1000 words is so much quicker and easier.

After about four revisions of plot and POV I think I finally have a first draft of my [info]unconventionalcourtship fic that I don't hate. And no excuse not to finish it now...


I didn't mean to go three weeks without posting anything, but I was busy and then I was ill (labyrinthitis - at least it wasn't covid, but it's also a thing I would describe as wouldn't wish on my worst enemy).

Some thing that have happened:

1. I had a birthday - at the beginning of the month. I had the day off and went out to spend an hour with rabbits. Definitely the best thing I could do on my birthday. And I discovered a former vegan cafe nearby had a choice(!) of gluten free vegan cakes. I had a very nice, big, chocolatey slice.

2. Back in autumn 2019 I bought some new clogs because the old ones were squishing my toes and slipping on the heel. I tried these out in my garden in summer 2020, then wore them for the first time last month. And they promptly took more skin that you're imagining off my heel. So that hurt. I now have more heel padding so my new clogs now also squish my toes...

3. I'd just about recovered from that and could dance again when I got labyrinthitis. Which I'm still not 100% recovered from. But I am definitely getting better - yesterday I wanted to do something active, so I sat in the garden and pulled up weeds. I did do quite a bit of writing towards the end of the week to test how much I could use a computer and think in order to work out when to go back to work.

4. It's tennis on telly season! aka the French Open started today. Although I don't watch it on TV because I don't like the camera work, adverts or Jim Courier. Interestingly, though, on an episode of The Bill from 1984 a character mentioned getting home to watch the French Open. I had no idea it was on TV at all until recently. I have the second week of Wimbledon off, which I am looking forward to (as long as Djokovic doesn't win - or Novax as he's known in our house).

What I am reading Wednesday

What I Just Finished Reading
The Galaxy and the Ground Within by Becky Chambers. I struggled with this to begin with because it was so slow. I eventually looked at the blurb on the back and realised it was introducing me to all the characters before the plot actually started. Which turned out to only be a chapter away by that point. And once the plot did start I really enjoyed it and finished it quickly. I enjoyed it overall, but I could have done without struggling through the slow start.

What I'm Currently Reading
Dead Famous by Greg Jenner. I think I bought this for £1 in Kobo's Black Friday sale in 2021. It's about celebrities of the past. It is interesting and he has some amusing asides. But what amused me was that he quoted someone in the 1930s complaining about a celebrity who was famous just because her father was rice and famous. The quote was longer than that, but it could be about any number of celebrities these days. He gave the quote and said "were you thinking of Kim Kardashian" and I wasn't because I didn't know her father was famous. I thought she was famous for having an artificially big bum. I don't think I'm really into the whole celebrity culture. But it's still really interesting to read about (long) dead famous people and what they were famous for.

What I'm Reading Next
No idea. Still working through books I've had a while and really ought to read and it'll be whatever I fancy next.

Space Swap

Now [info]space-swap has been revealed, I can talk all about it.

First, I got an excellent Galaxy Quest world-building gift:
The Quest Continues (1668 words) by tablelamp
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Summary: Messages from an online Galaxy Quest community, circa 1999-2000

It's delightfully nostalgic. And for the first time in an exchange I shook my gift! That was because when I went to upload mine I realised the number of gifts I have had gone up and there were something like eight fics uploaded at that point. So by shook I mean I looked at the fandoms list and only one of them was something I'd asked for. And since I knew I'd asked for world building, I wasn't sure what other shaking I could do. So I didn't. I was excited to be getting it, so further shaking didn't seem necessary.

And now for the things I wrote: Continue reading

15 characters meme: answers

First, the characters. I purposely picked 15 different fandoms. Some of them will be really obscure to some people, so I will explain who they are in my answers.

1. Josie Trent (Black Hole High)
2. Missy (Doctor Who)
3. Harry Pearce (Spooks)
4. Spock (Star Trek)
5. Villanelle (Killing Eve)
6. Lynda Day (Press Gang)
7. Sam Beckett (Quantum Leap)
8. Danny Wilde (The Persuaders)
9. Emma Peel (The Avengers)
10. Servalan (Blake's 7)
11. Elizabeth Weir (Stargate Atlantis)
12. Josh Lyman (The West Wing)
13. John Boulton (The Bill)
14. Marty Hopkirk (Randall & Hopkirk (Deceased))
15. Flynn Carsen (The Librarians)

To the answers: Continue reading

Fifteen characters meme

It feels like everyone is doing it, and it looks like fun, so why not do it too. I'll answer these next weekend.

1) Make a list of fifteen characters first, and keep it to yourself for the moment.

2) Ask your f-list to post questions in the comments. For example: "One, nine, and fifteen are chosen by a prophecy to save the world from four. Do they succeed?", "Under what circumstances might five and fourteen fall in love?", "Which character on the list would you most want on your side in a zombie invasion?"

3) After your f-list has stopped asking questions, round them up and answer them using the fifteen characters you selected beforehand, then post them.


1. I am too tired for this clock change. My computer says it's just past 10am, my clock says it's just past 9am and my body is saying "More sleep please". On Friday more than one person at work talked to me about the project I'm on needing to be done in a month and how there's a lot to do and asking if I'm stressed. I wasn't before they asked (I was practising the head-in-sand strategy). But then I got no sleep because I was then worried about it. On the plus side, since then I've been too tired to care. Also I am new and slow and whenever I've given people the choice of 'wrong, but now' or 'right, but later' they've always picked the 'right, but later' option.

2. We have our first dance out in a month. I am not ready. No one ever feels ready for the first one, but this year it's more so given that we haven't danced out since 2019, although last summer we did do a flash mob dance at the pub which another side had invited us to. But since we weren't in kit or wearing clogs and borrowed sticks from the other side, it felt very low pressure. It will be fun and I am looking forward to wearing the clogs I bought in 2019 ready for summer 2020 and have only worn in the garden (much to the interest of next door's cat).

3. I have nearly finished my [info]space-swap fic and a treat - they're sitting around for a week so I can see the terrible bits without getting sick of reading the thing. And went back to a fic I started a few years ago. So I thought I could do [info]fandom5k since I seem to be writing long things at the moment and it has bags of time. But between [info]unconventionalcourtship and the aforementioned busy time at work coming up, I think perhaps not giving myself more things with deadlines is a good idea. I am tempted to do [info]seasonsofdrabbles because it turns out I haven't written a drabble since 2014 and obviously the pressure of writing one for someone else on a deadline is the best way to see if I still can.

4. Speaking of [info]unconventionalcourtship, I spent a few days looking at my saved summaries and trying to decide what to write. I went for (Spooks) Harry/Ruth, for which I have one summary I don't like. After a lot of refreshing the Unconventional Courtship Pairing Generator I've found one that would work - and isn't at all shippy. Which suits me fine, as I liked the stage of their relationship when you wondered if it was just the actors or whether it was actually in the script.

5. Speaking of fannish things, after two goes, I found the name of my Tumblr. And then had to go through the forgotten password thing because I have no idea what it is. After spending some time reading some Tumblrs I discovered that I really can't deal with Tumblr - due to reblogs. I get completely confused as to who is saying what. I have the same problem on Twitter, but on there you can turn off retweets (that the person retweeting them hasn't commented on). So no Tumblr for me, but I have one that I now have the password to that I could use for ficathons where you have to have a Tumblr to sign up for.